…or when it doesn’t
…or when you are in the car and by the time you get back to your studio the inspiration is gone.
This happens to me a LOT. Every day, almost. I’ll be at work (I have a ‘desk job’) and I’ll think about a project I wanted to finish, or something I want to try, or I get the inspiration to practice, or I get an idea for something really cool/great. By the time I get home; done.
Sometimes I’m just too tired and all I want to do is watch Better Call Saul, but more often, I’m just uninspired again. If I do manage to wander into the studio I just don’t feel it anymore.
Sometimes I start anyway and it does, on occasion, turn into a good ‘studio session’. Often, however, since I’m not feeling it, the idea is never explored. Lost? Not that great anyway?
Is this a matter of clamming up – the intimidation of the ‘blank page’ – when I step into the studio? Why am I so jacked at the thought of this ‘brilliant idea’ when I am not in any position to execute it or follow through?
Hmmmm. Is it BECAUSE I am in no position to follow through? I know in the back of my mind that I can’t do this thing anyway at this very moment, so all trepidation is cast away? My mind is free to create if only virtually?
Something crazy happens on the way from Inspiration to Preparation; or from Preparation to Inspiration. One of those. I feel like the cliché scene in the movies of the couple who wants to have a baby…woman takes her temperature – hey, honey – now is a perfect time – so they run off to the bedroom in the middle of the day. But I can’t just run off to the studio when the inspirational fever hits.
No answers here if you are ‘suffering’ from the same thing. But I guess I write this to let anyone out there who cares to listen or chime in that you are not alone!
Maybe, just maybe, it means I have to quit my desk job!
Til next time,